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I am qualified

Qualified.

This is my word right now. It’s the word I chose to stand under for the whole of 2018. Because the truth is most days I feel pretty unqualified. Unqualified to raise these three humans entrusted to me. Unqualified to lead by example, to teach them how to build a strong marriage rooted in love and honesty and forgiveness; teach them how to put Jesus at the center of their lives.

I struggle to claim words like “writer” and “ministry leader” because don’t you need to have a diploma with these words on them or get a paycheck for doing them before you can be them? I don’t, so I am unqualified.

I struggle to claim the words instructional designer or teacher when I’ve been developing curriculum and delivering training professionally for 2 years. Because it’s not what I went to school for, I am unqualified.

But then I realize the truth is that even with a Master’s Degree in Marketing and 15 years experience building and managing websites, I never felt completely qualified to call myself a subject matter expert in online marketing.

I could spend hours trying to figure out why I struggle to claim these things. To feel qualified. But the bottom line is we all know that God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

So right now I’m working to claim it. To own my calling and lean on heavenly qualification.

God gave me these three children to raise and love and teach. I am qualified to be their mother.

God brought this man into my life and called us into marriage. I am qualified to be his wife.

God gave me words and a deep-seated desire to write them down and share them with others. I am qualified to be a writer.

God gave me a heart for women, for leading retreats, and speaking truth and hope and light into other’s lives. I am qualified to lead a ministry.

God led me to a second career as a training designer and manager, a job I love and work at every day. I am qualified for it.

And whatever is next. Whatever God whispers to my heart and guides me toward. I will be qualified. Not because of what I’ve done, but because of Who does the qualifying.

What’s your word?

 

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5 thoughts on “I am qualified”

  1. Definitely needed this!!! I recently have been feeling unqualified in life too.

    I guess my word right now is called. There are so many opportunities to serve others and jobs that I know I can do to help others, but what is the one thing I should be focusing on, pursuing , spending most of my day doing? When I take on too much I feel pulled in many directions instead of called in one direction. But so many people out there need things…. I know.I cany do it all but I sure do try lol.

    1. Oh friend, I hear you on this. It can be hard to hear God’s calling when we try to do too much. It all seems like good stuff, but if it’s keeping us from fully committing to and pursuing what God has for us, is it really good stuff? I know this is hard, especially for someone with such a generous heart like yours, but I have found that when I listen to God He always helps me find focus on the most important things, and shows me how to step back from the rest. Praying for clarity and guidance for you!

  2. Oh yes, I can totally relate to this one. I wrote a little bit about it this week in fact. I guess my word is also “unqualified” because I feel it all the time. I am homeschooling my oldest this year and I feel like I have no idea what I am doing. No idea. At all. And this writing thing (I don’t even know how to set up wordpress for business!) and photography and my health and …I’m just overwhelmed. In other words, I needed the reminder I’m not alone in feeling this way.

    1. Lisa, you are not alone. So many of us feel unqualified for the things God has called us to do. Just remember that He is beside you every step of the way and it is on this and not our own understanding we are capable and qualified.

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